I've questioned whether I should write about this because it feels incredibly vulnerable to share. Did you know I have been afraid of becoming a mom and what it would do to my career. Would people still want to support my art and creativity, or would they see it as a hobby? I realized that I have been living under a lie that I hadn't faced until this new phase. I haven't been able to do the same amount of things as I did earlier in my career having this baby, but you know what? I am healthier, happier and not burnt out. I am taking care of myself in a way that I lacked before. My self talk has shifted from "I should do this" to "let's just try and see how far we can go". I am stopping when my body is calling me to rest, and working when I have the energy, enthusiasm, and life force to create. Truly I feel like I am understanding what it means to go with the flow in a whole new way.
In August 2023 I had hit a rock bottom place. I wasn't holding strong boundaries, and I had overworked using caffeine as a crutch to give me false energy. I had a large commission that was asked of me to be completed in an unrealistic timeline. I did it to make the client happy and in return I was burnt out. I had been giving and giving and giving without stopping for myself, and that project was the last straw. At a massage late last summer I noticed that I couldn't breathe out very well, and I knew something was wrong. I had to take a large break from painting and work. I stopped drinking coffee (something I had done for 11 years), and slowed down as much as I could. The guilt would creep in every time I rested. A nagging feeling that I wasn't enough unless I finished something. Maybe you can relate? After-all, we live in a hustle culture that rewards working yourself into exhaustion as normal.
I don't think I took a full break from business until I went on my honeymoon to Disney World in Fall 2023. That break shifted my mindset, and I came back recharged for the first time in months. Getting pregnant was a miracle. I didn't plan on this event happening, and I thought due to my crash of energy earlier in the year that it would have been nearly impossible. I have had some tremendous challenges to face while I've been pregnant, but I still feel better than I did last year.
So truly... what has it been like to be pregnant and running a business like this?
I am honestly so happy that I got to work from my home studio the past 9 months. I've felt that some people want to pause on getting art, or they don't want to burden me while I'm pregnant. The truth is, my art career is the soul, passion and life I CHOSE to live. I am working at a pace that is sustainable today and feels good for me. It's enriched and even better than before I was pregnant. Now I am discovering a new beautiful way to running this business that is life giving and brings me authentic joy.
Thank you for reading along this wild journey and being a part of my life!
Cheers, Kristine Cooper
Pregnant & Living as a Creative Entrepreneur